I am depressed.
Not much of a confession, I know. but I need it to stop, so I needed to write it down. I don't need sympathy. I don't need medication. I don't need psychological intervention. What I need is a serious attitude adjustment.
I had changed a lot of things, and thought I had been making progress the last few weeks, but as my Mom left yesterday, I felt the weight creeping in again and it just can't. I can't explain how I feel, but I'm certain some of you out there have felt it before.
I can't keep up with the housework, work work, yard work--any of it
I'm feel like an inadequate mother, wife, friend, etc.
I am not happy with my physical self
I avoid social interaction
I feel old and unattractive
I feel isolated
I feel the best of my life has passed and it's down hill from here
Did I mention, I'm exhausted?
If you've ever felt like this, please...share with me what you did to change. If it involves medication, please don't share--as I strongly believe my issue is not medical in nature, but rather a challenge I need to mentally overcome. I believe that the grass is greener on the other side, and the best of my life is yet to come. I also believe that, in spite of being overwhelmed, we can be happy- I know because I've felt that too, and I want to feel it again.